Letters I wish I could send...or at least know they'd get read

Bipolar disorder,

I hate you. Why have you suddenly stopped responding to the meds? I'm in a major mixed mood state right now and I hate it. Especially since I'm a rapid cycler! One minute I'm agitated and restless as hell and have to get up and move. The next I'm in a slump and want to do nothing except hide under the covers and sleep and sleep and sleep. I don't want to eat in either state, and goodness knows that's not a good idea.

I don't see the "doctor" until the 11th, and I already know she's going to be useless as usual. I'm really tired of her not giving me a month's worth of drugs, but two weeks at a time. BS! What if I can't get there on the right day to pick up the next week's worth? We both know darn well what happens if you miss even a day. And the way it is right now, it would be even worse.

Stop, please. I don't need this right now. I just can't handle another major shift.

Me

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Crappy insurance company...

See that letter above? You see how crappy my treatment is? It's your fault. You know why? Because you don't believe mental illness is a "real" disease. You'll hand out medications and treatment for everything as long as it's physical and can be seen and tested. Me and thousands, hell, millions like me are left out in the cold to go to publicly funded, over worked, understaffed clinics.

Mental illness is just as real as high blood pressure, diabetes, cancer, and every other disease you cover.

We deserve the proper treatment, damn it. Get with the program and help instead of hinder.

No love,
Me